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I’m so happy T_T
Now to go through the first couple months thinking of nothing but work and thinking it’s the best thing to happen to me for a job since I haven’t worked in almost 2 years.
And then bitch about it later, but at the place where I’m working at…. I doubt it lol
I’ll make you proud, I want to make everyone proud…I want to make myself proud…
is here.
Lots of thoughts. Lots of empty nonschool days.
It’s been already a year…
Friday:
I was busy that day actually. Full of plans. Also driving my gf to Paint Branch prom with her friends, that was fun. But something the whole day was making me feeling uneasy. But I figured out what it was later and couldn’t believe it. I was kinda speechless at my own feelings but at the same time…meh, -sighs- I’m derping up again.
Saturday:
Jay Park Concert w/ DUMBFOUNDED. lol busy day too. Dropped off my gf to her friend’s house for work, then picked up Mai. Waited in DTSS for like 4 hours with Gloria and Valerie. Then I left to pick up Diana after her work, and we all went to the concert. It was a rough time for her because she didn’t know the environment of Asian Fangirls and that she didn’t know who was in it. She went for me…<3 >___< lol but we left a little early, like after the first JP song. Yeah i know, shame on me but idc, I left because she was hurt and not feeling well so we left and ate at Asian Bistro. Though I didn’t see you that day, I wonder what would have happened if I did…=\
Sunday: so far, been busy. I’ll make another post up later…
But yeah, I’ve missed tumblr. I need like a working laptop again, because using my tv as a screen because my monitor on my laptop still doesn’t work….
On my way to getting a job so far…>___<
A = Stay home, I won’t get in possible trouble again. Bad side = I miss out on an opportunity to see you succeed.
B = I go to you and see you succeed. I’m doing it for you, to support you, to want to see what you can do. Bad side = the unknown variable of possible getting in trouble is a highly probable risk that scares me…highly.
I don’t know which to choose =( It’s clear what I should choose for my own safety, but it’s just I don’t like the feeling of not being able to be there…
Thanks to my sister, she helped me get focused for the next couple of hours.
I got a nice to-do list and I’m hoping everything throughout the day goes through, if not. then…idk lol it might all fall >___< but there are always alternatives.
But right now, I’m just focusing on what to do now today to get to tomorrow. how I handle tomorrow….i’m not sure >_<
I just like to thank the support of my family and friends =]
and that I’m feeling very focused and really into what I’m doing right now. like my make up exam at 1 (1 hr from now lol) and a whole bunch of other stuff at the same time. which is only like 2-3 other things but will also pick up through the whole day.
I don’t know what I’m talking about. >_< but yeah, I haven’t blogged in a while and I just want to say this stuff now =]
blehhhh =3
I can’t even think. Life is hitting me hard right now.
Stress, it’s big. I’m scared.
I haven’t been able to tumble correctly.
It’s too vague now but that’s how I want it to be. I’m just scared…
Lemme just start off with that it was a very special day for one of my close friends MICHAEL VO! Even though I don’t hang out with him as much lately, I still made time today to go hang out with him on his very special day of his birth. lol So happy birthday dude, I hope today you had fun. xD AVENGERS!!
that you get when you completely feel terrible and helpless to something that you could have been in…
I have that feeling, that utter feeling of messing up and regretting not being able to be there to help out.
I’m useless….I’m still so useless….
